Broken Seconds

All of us find ourselves in moments that have our hearts in a million pieces. We hit our knees and pray to God for it to get better. But it only seems to get worse. Our seconds turn into days, months, and even years. We find ourselves thinking were worthless and not worth what God created us to be. Late at night, we sit on our phones scrolling through the memories wondering where the time went. We still love them even when they don’t love us. It’s broken memories and just us reminiscing on every memory we made. It’s a time where we sit down and actually listen to what God has to say. Cause really that’s our only hope. Ladies and Gentlemen, our life shouldn’t be measured with a coffee spoon, it should be measured in the seconds that take our breath away. Seconds, hours, months, and even years is what measures a life. Every second were un happy we are limiting the time God gives us. Yes, life is full of obstacles and loops but we must step out of our comfort zone, we wear the armor of God, why should we be afraid? Were Human that’s why. We sometimes question God’s voice. Listen, no moment should be taken for granted because you are not guaranteed another second. So, ladies it’s time to step out of that bad relationship, it’s time to let go of the boy who broke your heart, it’s time to find yourself and create your masterpiece God designed you to be. Gentlemen, it’s time to stop letting her walk over you, or it’s time for you to make a change in yourself. The heart is the most delicate organ in the body. Just think it has many vessels running through it, it pumps the blood throughout your whole body without missing a beat. The heart takes a lot of scars. Furthermore, it hurts when we hurt. The heart loves unconditionally and it even loves when it should not anymore. Emotions are one of the most incredible things about humans and animals. Our feelings control how we live our life. For example, when I was elected to serve as one of the Alabama FFA Central District Officers my heart was beaming. Even though my life seemed to be falling apart in those seconds. My boyfriend at the time I found out there was accusations made that he was cheating on me. I began to question why this had to happen to me. The same day I was elected as an officer, my dad was rushed into emergency surgery for his gallbladder that had ruptured. See this was a time my faith was truly tested. But I remained strong. Just two days after I was elected March 17, 2016, I broke up with my boyfriend. Honestly, it was a decision I felt was good and bad. I found myself questioning if I had done the right thing. Above all, he was my first love. The real question began to run through my mind who was I going to take to prom. Days, weeks, and even months I fought with my boyfriend. But really all of this only separated us more. He was my best friend. How was I supposed to move on? Those words stuck in my head for over a year. Finally, on May 9, 2017, we finally went our separate ways. Yes, it was hard, but it was not what it used to be and never would be the same. Of course, I knew that. During, the summer I broke out of my comfort zone really quick. I loved life. I dated on and off. Boy after boy just didn’t seem to make me happy. I found myself un happy. The day I had dreamed my whole life, had finally came. My first day of college. I began to worry myself, because I knew I would have to see him. Surprisingly, we walked down the hallway without a word, just like he was a stranger to me and I was a stranger to him. It was a wow factor for sure. But I continued to walk down the hall to my first class. As a sat down in the empty desk, I began to ponder what college truly meant. As weeks went by, I began to find myself away from him farther and farther away. My heart would ache but I finally knew it was over even if I truly wished it wasn’t. College began to truly look up for me when I let go of the one thing that was holding me back. I loved Agriculture and animals but he didn’t he was limiting my passions and abilities because I was letting him. No man or woman should ever be able to steal what makes you happy. He or she should love everything about you no matter how weird or how much he or she doesn’t like whatever it is. Every year we hope for it to be better than the last. I truly hope the next one is way better. “The thing is you can bandage the damage but you can never really fix a heart”. Probably the hardest thing is for you to overcome that you can’t be friends anymore when you guys talked every day, and then all the sudden no longer a sound. But it will get better. God will only give you what you can take. Almost 7 months later, I’m ready to start my life that God has for me. It’s all about the seconds, hours, days, and months that you spend finding yourself. It’s about doing the things that make you happy. It’s about making new friends and creating new paths. I found my best friends through what I thought was a tough time. I leaned on them and they pulled me through. Now, I feel so free from the chains. But first, you have to take the leap to jump out of your comfort zone. When you feel like there is no hope, take a kneel and pray to the one who knows all your needs, fears, and broken seconds. He loves you more than anyone. My friend once told me this; “you should not struggle in your relationship with the Lord, Because I promise in times like this is when you need him the most”. So, the broken seconds are what lead you on the destined path for you.

Love Always,

Destiny Massengill